Striving…striving…striving…but never satisfied.
The work is never done, nor the worrying, or the wondering.
The effort never enough, long enough, good enough…it’s never finished.
I am always chasing after
being the best mom, the perfect wife, the superior employee, the 24/7 friend who’s always there when called upon.
The mom with all the answers, the “cool” mom.
And then there is the guilt of not getting enough rest, not taking care of my body.
Whatever I do it’s neither good enough or long enough to
lead to satisfaction.
Ecclesiastes 1: All the rivers run into the sea, yet the sea is not full.
Ecclesiastes 2: 17 ” Therefore, I hated life because the work that was done under the sun was distressing to me, for all is vanity and grasping for the man. (v. 24) For what has man for all his labor, and for the striving of his heart? Nothing is better for a man then he should eat and drink. That his soul should enjoy good in his labor. This also I saw, was from the hand of God. “
Life involves striving, labor and
redundancy.
I find myself striving to
get to work on time,
say the right thing,
Clean the house,
pay the bills, do the laundry,
be a good wife, take care of my body.
Yet, I feel Jesus calling me to set these things aside and if I am going to strive
Then I must first strive to be in His presence.
If I am going to chase after something then let me
Chase after Jesus.
I will catch peace, satisfaction and joy in the chase when the object I am chasing is You, Lord.
Hide and Seek 