Archive | March 2014

Dreamer Wake Up

Mar20

I fell asleep with you on my mind.  Your name in my prayers.  You showed up in my dreams.  It sent chills through my bones. I woke up, heart racing. I woke up unable to go back to sleep. I woke up wondering if you would wake up too.

I fell asleep with you on my mind.  Remembering back to earlier days. We were just learning how to talk.  We were just getting to know each other better.  I realized I really liked you.  You inspired me, encouraged me to set a goal.

I woke up wondering if you were awake too.  Did you feel the chills did they go down to your bones? Did you wonder if the dream was just a dream or if it was for real?

I fell asleep believing in His Word.  I prayed it over you.  I know that His word never returns void.  Despite the dream, despite what’s real  His love for you will never change.  It will never fail.  It will reach you no matter how far away you go.

My hope does not rest in humanity. My hope does not rest in  solutions or programs or theory.  My hope does not rest in understanding, sympathy, discernment.  My hope does not rest. It does not grow weary. It does not give up. It does not quit breathing.

Don’t ever confuse my disapproval of what you do…as disapproval of you.  Don’t confuse my expectations of what I know you can do …..as judgement of you.  Don’t confuse my nonacceptance of the choices you make as a lack of acceptance of you. Don’t confuse courageous love that dares to speak the truth with self-righteous better than you accusations. Love  speaks to the hurt and the hurting and the hurtful.  It brings a message of peace to the conflict and the conflicted.

You were the last thought I had.  You were the last prayer I said.  You showed up in my dreams. I woke up  wondering will you wake up too?

_Kathryn White

03/18/2014

Seasons of the Soul

Mar17

I’m sitting here listening to the hum of Dan’s computer.  It’s late.  I am relaxed.  My eyes are heavy with anticipated sleep.  It has been a good day.  The sky decided to show  it’s blue canopy. It shared it with a few passing clouds the big white fluffy kind and together they cheered on the sun to shine its brightest.  The sky and the clouds along with the slowly melting snow all seem to know how long the winter has been.  The temperature and wind still held on though. They are reluctant to let winter go.  But they will it’s quite certain that they too will be swayed to join in the chorus of the long awaited Spring. Outside my window I saw little green leafs popping up from the ground and on the ends of the branches of the trees fuzzy little buds have made their appearance.  

Without the winter, i am afraid I would not appreciate these little signs of Spring.  Without the snow and cold and short days i wouldn’t notice it when the sun stayed in the sky two extra minutes before slipping into the darkness.  I wouldn’t celebrate the high of “40” degrees by wearing a sweatshirt instead of my winter coat.  I wouldn’t praise the warm temperature of double digits if I hadn’t felt the bitter cold negative temperatures that hurt my chest when I breathed deep and made my jeans cold just opening the door.  

Thankful for the seasons that can so symbolize the seasons of life.  What season do I thrive in? What season do I desire to live in? What season represents my heart right now?  What season do I long for?  What season do I tire of?  Where are the signs that indicate change is on its way?  Are their glimpses of new life coming out of my words and actions? Are the signs of cold and bitter feelings towards other fading away surrendering to the warmth of the Son light in my own heart?  Is there a new warmth that radiates out of places that were once cold and dark?  Does the light of His love shine longer each day?  

No season lasts forever.  All seasons have their own unique purpose.  Spring represents new life, new start, new hope, resurrection. Grace, peace, and the freedom to move forward.  Summer reminds us of growth, maturity, leafs that provide shade are symbols of encouragement. We like leafs of a tree should provide shade to those suffering from the heat of the day.  The longer days, the hotter sun, represent extra time, extra passion to share His word, His love, to those who have lost their way or have not yet found It.  Fall reminds us that nothing lasts forever.  We have to let go. We have to move on. Harvest time.  We reap what we sow.  The birds and the animals prepare for the hard days ahead and so should we.  We know that the days will grow cold.  The nights grow long.  The winter will show up again.  Winter that provides rest for the soul of nature.  Winter that brings with the promise of Spring and newness of life.  Winter that fulfills its obligation to prepare us for the comfort and blessing of spring.  

So what season are you in?  God is in it with you.  He is the constant in all the changes we go through.  The season of our soul is where God works out our salvation.  Embrace each one, long for each one and be thankful for we are never alone.  

Kathryn White

03/17/2014