sometimes i put myself and my health on the bottom of the “things to take care of” list.

isn’t that what i was taught: JOY: Jesus, Others and then Yourself leads to joy in life…and it does

but do others really want me to love them as i have loved myself?

There is a healthy balance somewhere in between putting others first and taking care of me.

Letting myself go, ignoring important health appointments because i don’t want to deal with the possible consequences of not taking care of me, pretending if i just ignore it, it will go away,

but knowing all along inside, i just can’t  let me slide by, i need to find a way to take better care of me

the Lord himself, through the Word has said, that I am created in His image, bought with a price, the actual temple of the Holy Spirit, part of the Bride of Christ. a new creation,

i am taking positive steps, back on the road again to good health

i have taken steps before and i get tripped up by that

frustrated with starting over again instead of seeing victory over this complacency thing

a part of me wonders how long this “spurt” of self-care awareness will last until i stash me away again at the bottom of

the “things i need to take care of list.”

grace says “you can start this road again. just get back up and take one step in the right direction and repeat again, and again and again.”

grace says eliminate from your vocabulary the shame of should or should not and replace it with choose and choose not

i am on the road again.