Archive | November 2016

A present view of denial

Nov2
  • What does denial look like up close
    • Avoidance of the resources that keep the issues forefront in mind instead of swept under the cobwebs of excuses, apathy and complacency .  Example: Instead of reading my daily reading from my Celebrate Recovery Study Bible App.  I have been avoiding it.
    • Selective forgetfulness. Forgetting that in fact, I have a problem with food and pretending that I can really eat that doughnut, or candy bar or ice cream…when in fact, I know that those are trigger foods and will lead me down the wrong track.
    • Regret and/ or shame and Isolation.  Both lead to guilt and feeling defeated which leads to giving up and believing the lie that I can’t do this (which is true, I can’t do this on my own) and I don’t deserve to be healthy (which isn’t true, but it’s not about deserving it as it is about choosing it.)
  • So, the difference about this time vs. every other time….
    • Recognizing the denial creeping in.
    • Acknowledge it.
    • Return to the truth.
    • Do the things I’ve been avoiding.
    • Choose better
    • Ask for help because doing “change” on your own is really hard, if not impossible, to do.  Asking first my Higher Power ( Jesus Christ) to help me. And my CR family to pray for me.