I fell asleep with you on my mind.  Your name in my prayers.  You showed up in my dreams.  It sent chills through my bones. I woke up, heart racing. I woke up unable to go back to sleep. I woke up wondering if you would wake up too.

I fell asleep with you on my mind.  Remembering back to earlier days. We were just learning how to talk.  We were just getting to know each other better.  I realized I really liked you.  You inspired me, encouraged me to set a goal.

I woke up wondering if you were awake too.  Did you feel the chills did they go down to your bones? Did you wonder if the dream was just a dream or if it was for real?

I fell asleep believing in His Word.  I prayed it over you.  I know that His word never returns void.  Despite the dream, despite what’s real  His love for you will never change.  It will never fail.  It will reach you no matter how far away you go.

My hope does not rest in humanity. My hope does not rest in  solutions or programs or theory.  My hope does not rest in understanding, sympathy, discernment.  My hope does not rest. It does not grow weary. It does not give up. It does not quit breathing.

Don’t ever confuse my disapproval of what you do…as disapproval of you.  Don’t confuse my expectations of what I know you can do …..as judgement of you.  Don’t confuse my nonacceptance of the choices you make as a lack of acceptance of you. Don’t confuse courageous love that dares to speak the truth with self-righteous better than you accusations. Love  speaks to the hurt and the hurting and the hurtful.  It brings a message of peace to the conflict and the conflicted.

You were the last thought I had.  You were the last prayer I said.  You showed up in my dreams. I woke up  wondering will you wake up too?

_Kathryn White

03/18/2014